For a former/current intern dinner this week my previous CLDI internship director invited all the former interns (including me now!) to share with the new interns some insight from our experience with the internship. As I processed over the last year I pulled up my debrief evaluation from May. Here is a section:
“God often seems to call me into places/roles/situations where I have to step out of my comfort zone, despite my strong tendency to fear and be anxious, but this year in Montana He really challenged me in many ways where I all I could do was step out in faith and obedience, and constantly put aside doubts and worries and comforts. I don’t think I will ever conquer my fear and anxiety of the uncomfortable and unknown but I am learning more and more how to trust God in those situations and yield all that to Him and more importantly even intentionally putting myself out there when I know fear is keeping me from being faithful to how God calls me to live.”
It’s unreal and bittersweet to think that that season is over with but I hope and pray I will never ever forget this.
“God often seems to call me into places/roles/situations where I have to step out of my comfort zone, despite my strong tendency to fear and be anxious, but this year in Montana He really challenged me in many ways where I all I could do was step out in faith and obedience, and constantly put aside doubts and worries and comforts. I don’t think I will ever conquer my fear and anxiety of the uncomfortable and unknown but I am learning more and more how to trust God in those situations and yield all that to Him and more importantly even intentionally putting myself out there when I know fear is keeping me from being faithful to how God calls me to live.”
It’s unreal and bittersweet to think that that season is over with but I hope and pray I will never ever forget this.